NotGuiltyAnymore's Diary

Hi Danu,

Just finished my first go through with the video and transcript. I started to yawn during the last round but otherwise am pleased to report there were no escaping tactics.

As soon as I finished, my first thought was 'Now, what is there to eat?' ROFL But that was 5 or so minutes ago and I haven't got off this chair to get anything. That could be pure laziness of course :lol:

[Afterwards:] Just checked my food diary that I've been keeping since 13th December (I've worked hard to remove 12.5 kgs since then) and was amazed to see that I didn't eat anything for 2 hours after tapping - wow! And what I did eat was a cheese and tomato croissant followed 2½ hours later by some mushroom soup.

So I'm seeing results already :D

Thank you so much for this opportunity and I'll let you know each time there's something new happen. If I notice it of course!

Love to you
NGA

On Wed morning we had brunch at a cafe - a Caesar salad - and I always find the parmesan gets a bit overwhelming. Usually I force myself to eat it until I reach the point of feeling sick but yesterday I just left a heap of it. No thoughts about it at all, I just did it. That's the good news part.

Today I've done heaps of exercise. We walked 10 kms at a medium pace this morning and then this evening while hubby's at work I jogged on the treadmill for 30 mins and then did 10 mins on the vibration platform. If I'd done a long walk I wouldn't normally do the other 2 things as well. Also powered through more housework than I would normally do in one hit so have not been lazy today. One of the many things NM regularly accused me of being. I often wonder if I really am/was or whether I became a self-fulfilling prophecy.

Love to each of you
NGA

Hi Danu,

Huge, massive, enormous changes here today! I’ve only just done today’s tapping so this is in response to the first 4 sessions – same timing as your [i.e. Danu's] first big shift – interesting! I woke up happy to get out of bed after 6.75 hours sleep. I’m always an 8-hour girl normally. And then we went for an 8 km walk before we had a brunch at the shops at noon. I got a fisherman’s platter and felt full after ¼ of it. Now that’s news in itself!!! I did finish the fish parts of the meal and had about 5 chips in all and left the rest. Just didn’t want them! I left the tartare sauce because I didn’t like it where normally I’d have eaten it anyway.

Seven hours later I thought that I suppose I’d better eat something. So I got a plate of fruit, which is what I normally have for meal #2 but I had an orange, tangelo and a small apple. Normally I’d have had a banana and a grapefruit on there as well. I didn’t want them!

I usually eat at 10.30am, 3pm, 7pm and 11pm (ish) with a small snack at 1am (we sleep from 3am until around 9.30 or 10am). Today I woke at 9.15am and we ate at noon and I had my fruit at 7pm. This is huge! I usually live from one meal to the next with my thoughts full of what I will eat and when. I forgot food existed for 7 full hours today.

My day has again been marked by a complete disregard for whether I eat or not. I had a good breakfast because I was going out to a craft show but didn’t care about food when I got home; so breakky was at 11.30am and I had my plate of fruit at 5pm. What I’ll eat or when for the evening I have no idea. The thing yesterday and today is that I‘ve gone from a 4 or 5 meal-a-day person to a 3 meal a day person literally overnight! Breakfasts have still been substantial but the other 2 meals have been smaller than any of the other 3 or 4 I’d have had before. I was down 500 grams (about a pound) this morning but this is losing weight I put on last Thursday evening not ‘new weight loss’. Very exciting to see what will develop now but I can see a time in the near future where I’ll be able to stop recording my food and adding up all the calories!

Food today has been good and bad but again that’s down to having to eat breakfast earlier than I’d choose, lunch too close to breakfast – anyway, just to do with [my granddaughters arriving early]. It took me 5 hours to even think about food after lunch and I only ate something small and was satisfied.

This is so awesome Danu, I’m so grateful to you for getting me back into EFT again.

Oh, I meant to say...

1) I threw a perfectly good, almost new, pair of trousers into the charity bag today. I've never liked them - DH picked them out while I was buying another pair. Discarding 'good stuff' is new for me :)

2) I'm on the brink of going through my shoes. I don't have heaps but I do keep those I don't wear any more because there's still some use in them. They're going in the bin if I can manage it, or the charity bag if not.

3) I had half of a sweet potato in the fridge and found some mould on one end. I threw the whole thing in the compost without a second thought. Normally I'd have cut off the minimum to 'rescue' the rest. In fact I've eaten many things in my life while wondering if they would cause me to lose them again at one end of the other.

4) There's a glimmer of me finishing more projects than I'm starting. Now I hope this one develops more!!!

5) I have been throwing away short lengths of cotton and jewellery thread that I would normally keep in case they could be used - as if!!!

I'm so pleased about all of these!!!

Hi Girls,

It seemed really odd but I wasn't eager to do my tapping yesterday and only did it because I'd promised Danu as part of the agreement :oops: Today we woke at 10:15 and didn't eat until 1pm. I next ate at 9pm. Didn't cross my mind sooner than that and I wasn't terribly hungry even then. *chuckling* Who *is* this strange woman typing posts with my username???

Ah well. It's time for today's tapping now and although I don't feel eager, as such, I'm certainly not averse to it today...

My house is getting tidier by the minute and I find at times I have the strongest urge to go throw something, anything out! I'm only doing this very slowly but it's a start. I've always had great difficulty parting with anything.

And we have a light luncheon on Sunday for the immediate family. Bought 'party food' yesterday and it's all sitting there on the kitchen bench. My three favourite savoury cracker brands with camembert cheese in the fridge. My favourite chocolate biscuits and some liquorice allsorts. Every time I pass they may or may not catch my eye and, if they do, they have about the same impact on me as looking at the dishcloth, it's so wonderful :lol:

My weight dropped 200 grams (.4 lb) this morning so it's on its way back down at last. I still have to lose another 200 grams to get back to what I was 2 weeks ago and then onwards to finish the remaining 3.5 kilos (7.7 lbs). And hopefully another 3 kilos after that but we'll take it one day at a time.

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